There is nothing weak about apoligizing.

I will be the first to admit i am a very stubborn person, from a scale to 1 and 10 i rate myself at a 10. I am set in my ways like a lot of people our but for me it takes me a certain ammount of time to realize that i am wrong. The one thing that i hate to admit. But when i start to think and process everything from a arument or a dissagrement and think to myslef and then realize that i was wrong. From fact checking or just to realize that maybe my argument didnt lead up to what i was hoping. Over the years as i studied, read and just listen to others i found myself admitting when i was wrong made me a stonger person. Admitting your wrongs does not make you a weak person it makes you a more understanding person. I am a working progress just like everybody else with his faults and thats okay. What is not okay for me is let my stubborness get the best of me. I continue to focus on my mental health and enjoy new studies and new methods of challenging myself in my way thinking. Finding being wrong is not always a bad thing but not taking ownership and letting your stubborness get the best is the problem. We all have our time periods of coming to the conclusion of this but at the end as long as as you see when you are in the wrong and can admit that helps you in the long run imo.

Toxic Surroundings

Sometimes being surrounded by toxic people, toxic surroundings could help you build a stronger mental health. Being battle tested, more experience on how to deal with a toxic enviorment. We all have been there and we know a lot about it. Knowing the best way to get out of it and cleanse yourself. Now its never a quick fix, it takes time. Sometimes you have that really good friend who always puts you down for wanting to try new things and eventually you learn that their toxic negativity is effecting your friendship with them, its tough trust me i am going through it and it sucks but i also progress and work through it. I have worked through a lot over the years and the work will continue. As for the toxic surroundings just remember you always have a choice. Stay around it and or steer away from it. And also remember it takes work. If you feel that your enviroment has been taken over by negativity and its effecting your mental health. Take the time and think it over and work on yourself instead of falling into the trap. There is so many ways of doing it. Find new hobbies, find new challenges for yourself. If you have new ideas, go for them. Keep yourslelf busy and then you will find yourself having less time for the toxic surroundings and toxic friends.

Keeping busy

I found myself in a very deep depression, feeling alone, nobody to really talk to. Social media was getting worst for me every day. I ate more and more and let myself to ballon up to a weight that i am not use to. I couldnt keep myself away from toxic energy. But one day, one day i look at myself in the mirror and told myself i am done. I am done and decided it was time for me to fix myself. I have a beautiful family and i needed to do something for myslef so i can actually be there them. I decided to take on new tasks, new journeys in life. I decided to get busy for myself, for my sanity, for my family. I decided to get back into weight training, drop this massive weight gain. I decided to focus on my writing career again by writing a book and write multiple screenplays. I even picked up cooking and found out i am actually not half bad at it. I am alot happier since i have made the changes. I still have my battles just like everyone else but keeping busy has been a very great gift. Keep busy my friends…..

Checking in

A couple of words can go along way, especially for somebody that is having a hard time during this pandemic. A friendly “whats up” or “how have you been”? You never know what a person is going through. So just a reminder check in on friends and family and remind them that you are thinking of them. There is a lot of lonely people out there who needs that right now. And as for the people reading this i just want to let you know, even though i may not know you, this is me checking in on you to see, how are you doing?

Just a reminder

I wanted to make the time to remind you, there is still some postive to this world. Trust me this time has been very hard on our family but we still do our best to find the positives. A lot has happen to us during the course of the year but we do not give up and I hope you do the same. Talk to somebody, find friends, keep up with friends, talk to friends and be a friend. Don’t let this difficult time defeat your Mental health.

A little peice of advice for new fathers.

Just a little peice of advice for new fathers or expected fathers, be supportive of your spouse no matter what. She has been through a long 9 month journey of carrying. She may have had some good days but she also had the bad ones. When she finally delievers the best thing you can do is be a team player for her and the baby.

Let them sleep.

Sometimes you just got to let the baby sleep.

Sometimes you just got to let them cry. 😢

Right now at this paticular moment Charley is crying, screaming and losing her stuff. After feeding her, burping her and trying to comfort her after 3 hours, she is still not happy. So I decided to lay her down in her crib and give myself time to reset. Hopefully this a something that will calm her down.

1 month old

I’m a little late but on july 26th My daughter Charley turned 1 month old. She is growing rapidly and its an amazing sight to see. She more active and likes to go on her own beat. She sometimes likes to hold her own bottle. She is trying to crawl already but I have to remind her to have some patience but if she is anything like her Dad then patience is not her best friend.