Dicovering your inner strength

1. Discovering new challenges

If you think you are weak and considering giving up on yourself, I must tell you that would be a mistake on your part. Trust me, I have gone through my pains, my struggles, my defeats, my misery, and my pain, and will continue to go through that every day as I go through my weight loss journey. I let my excuses and weaknesses get in the way of my goal. But one day, I looked in the mirror and told myself, “No more excuses.” It was time to really work. Put in work, do the work, and stop complaining about the work. And damn it was when I rediscovered my inner strength underneath my weak spirit. My spirit grew stronger. Now, I am not finished with my journey by a long shot. I will always be working progress just like every person on this earth. But, finding my inner strength has been the best thing for me, and I can’t tell you how much better I feel about myself. The steps I take.

1. Accepting new challenges.

2. Physically challenging myself

3. Mentally challenging myself

4. Never accepting defeat

5. Removing toxic energy.

There will be a thousand more steps you can take for your journey of inner strength, but for me, those are some of the few steps I take, and there will be more to come. You will grow, and you will learn, and you will endure to build a new you. During the height of the pandemic, I grew scared of the world. I was letting my anxiety defeat me every day. Missing out on great moments and feeling sorry for myself and just eating fast food every day. I’m sitting on my butt watching youtube clips and playing Madden all day. I was wasting away, and here was the real sad part. I had a gym membership and was doing nothing with it. One day, I talked to one of my best friends, who was helping his mom while battling throat cancer. But she kept fighting, not letting her cancer be an excuse, and we had a heart to heart talk, and she told me, “I am very concerned about your health, Devin.” She was talking to me like a concerned mom. And of course I gave her the old classic “I’ll work on it”. She looked me dead in the eyes, held my hand, and said, “No, you won’t.” It broke me because deep down, I knew she was right.

Something in my said to me, “This is your last chance,” and I kept listening to her in my mind with those words, “No, you won’t.” And kept hearing it over and over, and honestly, I got sick of it. I think she knew those words would drive me to do something, and thank goddness, she said those words. The first thing was to help with my mental health, so I seeked therapy. It was a major help. Then, I decided to use my gym membership and push myself to limit that I never thought I could reach. I wanted more; I wanted to keep pushing challenges, pushing for more, and more. I was done with fast food. I began hating my couch, lol. I just wanted to see what limits can go past.

1. 3:30 am 1 hr yoga session

2. 2 hour work out session at gym

3. Finding new challenges

4. Meditation

5. Work on new projects

6. Strict diet plan

7. Do it all over again.

8. Never give up on the goals

9. Endure punsishment and defeats

10. Learn from that punishment and defeats

A little sweat never hurt nobody, and a deafeat doesn’t mean you have to stay defeated. The struggles and losses were massive, but I wanted that, not for the excuses to give, but I wanted to learn. I didn’t mind embarrassing myself at the gym. I wanted to come back to prove myself, “I can f***ing do this.” Everyday, I told myself that and still do. I guess the reason why I am sharing this is because there are people out there going through the same struggles that I am going through, and I want to tell you and all of you. YOU CAN F***ING DO IT!!! All you have to is just get up and try.

Thank you for taking the time to read this blog, and if you have experience, please share your story, give helping tips, or just give a motivation speech. Anything for positive energy helps. But in the meantime, thank you and have a good day. Peace.

Milk Crate Challenge, My thoughts.

First people wanted to drink bleach, then it was licking donuts then it turned into licking ice cream and putting it back in the freezer so someone else can get sick. Just when you thought people couldn’t get anymore ridiclous, duh, duh duh “The Milk Crate Challenge” appears and I must tell you, its kind of funny to see. Not for the injuries but what people will do, the injuries and consequences people will do for internet clout. Now i have actually seen people go on this challenge and succeed without any injuries but I think there is a higher percantage of people who didnt make it.

Busted ribs, cracked sternums, broken backs, dislocated joints and fingers and etc. I have seen the injuries, the drops, the painful screams and even the cheers with little reward for their efforts and why would they? Broken bones is not cool and having millions of people laughing at you from their computers and cell phones because of the injuries is just another additon of pain. All of your followers will laugh and then move on to the next trend while you are recovering in the hospital (if you are lucky to get to a hospital).

The reward to this challenge if you make it without falling. Well i am not sure what the reward is. Probably more followers, maybe cash if somebody bet you. It could be a variety of rewards but you have to ask yourself when you are all the way up on the milk crates, losing your balance, sweat beading from your head with eyes locked in on you. You must ask yourself, “Is the reward worth it”. But by the time you ask that question it might already be too late when you are falling and you land stomach first on to a crate and the next question you are asking your is “why did i do this dumb s**t?” The many questions that go on in my head about this challenge but the biggest question about this challenge is where are people getting all of these crates?

Well if you are one of these people who are doing this challenge, well I hope you make it without any severe injuries but if you do, well you know what they say “You knew thr dangers of the job when you took it”. But in a serious note, do not accept this challenge. Kids be safe and do not accept this challenge.

Toxic Surroundings

Sometimes being surrounded by toxic people, toxic surroundings could help you build a stronger mental health. Being battle tested, more experience on how to deal with a toxic enviorment. We all have been there and we know a lot about it. Knowing the best way to get out of it and cleanse yourself. Now its never a quick fix, it takes time. Sometimes you have that really good friend who always puts you down for wanting to try new things and eventually you learn that their toxic negativity is effecting your friendship with them, its tough trust me i am going through it and it sucks but i also progress and work through it. I have worked through a lot over the years and the work will continue. As for the toxic surroundings just remember you always have a choice. Stay around it and or steer away from it. And also remember it takes work. If you feel that your enviroment has been taken over by negativity and its effecting your mental health. Take the time and think it over and work on yourself instead of falling into the trap. There is so many ways of doing it. Find new hobbies, find new challenges for yourself. If you have new ideas, go for them. Keep yourslelf busy and then you will find yourself having less time for the toxic surroundings and toxic friends.