Tag: patience

The battle with covid weight

The battle continues.

If you are struggling to beat the covid weight you put on, I have a news flash for you, if you are putting in the work you are winning already. The reason why I say that is if you are putting in the time, the work, and the effort with a clear focused mind you will be this weight. Before covid hit I was 240 lbs, lean with decent health only issues was my asthma. Then covid hit but that didn’t stop me from training. I just used a mask and fought through it. Then my gym closed for a couple of months. I used covid as an excuse not to work out. After that I blew up to my highest weight of my life. A womping 335 lbs. Sitting on the couch, playing madden eating Mcdonalds almost everyday along with Popeyes and etc.

I was destroying myself everday and night just sitting, being lazy, not working on my writing, letting my mind and brain rot away, wasting away time and effort that I could be doing something useful for my body. But I let covid get the best of me. I used that excuse every day just to avoid jogging outside. I became a complete embarrasment, I was very hard on myself but I continued to be weak. I would look at myself in the mirror and not even reconize myself. I couldnt believe after all the hard work I put in to get in decent shape I destroyed it all.

Then one day it just hit me. Covid was not my enemy, I was my worst enemy and I had to re-learn everything again that helped me get back into shape. I had to ask myself everytime when I drove past popeyes or mcdonalds “Do I need this?” And before I let the excuses come in and convince me that I did need the fast food fixing, I would answer “No”. Eneough was enough and I wanted to win this war. I went back yoga, weight training, and every workout I can possibly find without a gym being open. No more excuses.

I decided not to be hard on myself anymore because beating myself was not helping me at all. I also followed the great words of Master P aka Percy Miller. He once said “I dont take losses, I take lessons” and thats the way I look at this period in my life. Now I wont be showing any before and after pics of myself since I am not much of the selfie type. But take my word for it. I am now down to 295 lbs, feeling alot better physically and mentally. Being strict with my diet. Now if you are going through the same stuggles as I did, let me tell you if I can get up and do it, you can too. It’s not easy, its not fast and it will be a challenge but you can do it. Do not beat yourself up about the gain, focus on what you can do. Visualize what you can look like after all the hard work and effort. My journey is not done and it wont be for a very long time. Now the time limit you give yourself is up to you of course. But just be sure not to kill yourself trying to beat the covid weight gain. I hope your journey is a success and hope for the best for you and if you need words of encouragement I am in your corner. Good luck on the journey and be well.

Maskless Karen….

Just the other while i was standing in line i witnessed the wrath of a maskless Karen. Now i am not here to lecture people on wearing masks. “Do you” is usually my attitude towards peoples beliefs. Anyway while at the store with my 2 year old we finally got my 2 year old to wear her little dinosaur mask only because she thinks she is a dinosaur with it on. While getting groceries we noticed a woman in a heated debate with another woman about masks. The woman of the topic decided to leceture everybody about how stupid we were for not wearing a mask. She also wanted everybody to know how she suffered from anxiety and other symptons.

Then she pointed her attention to me with my daugher and i was like “lord here we go”. She decided to tell me how i was abusing my daughter and wanted to tell me about her symptons. At first i wanted to ignore her until she wanted to come near my daughter trying to take of my mask. To me thats crossing the line and i stepped in the way. I wish had my phone on me to record this situation but i have a bad habit of not carrying my phone. So then we get into it and i tell her. “Look heres the thing about me i am over 300 lbs whos a suffers from asthma and has anxiety. I have suffered from these symptons since i was a kid but i also workout everyday, jog and weightlift with a mask on”. She looked dumbfounded and shocked and then moved on.

So this is my warning to you maskless karens who want to push their beliefs on me, the best suggestion is just plain “dont do it. Because i am not on your side when it comes to this. I train everyday and sometimes have my panic attacks but i stop, focus on my breathing and take a couple of minutes to gain my composure. And then take a hit off my inhaler and take another moment then go back to my workout because i am staying commited to losing this weight, not letting covid defeat me again and not letting these symptons defeat. So please, maskless karens do not ever preach to me about your issues because we are not teamates and leave people alone and never cross the line of ever approaching another persons child because not everybody has the patience i have.